So today I quit... So I can begin.

          So Today November 1, 2015 I quit. I quit smoking cigarettes. I have had enough of wasting my money. I was tired having everyone and their mother asking me for a cigarette as if the name of the brand was "SUPPORT" as opposed to "NEWPORT". 

   

          I see these stupid commercials all the time. They are tell me how "so and so" has a hole in his throat and can not swim at the beach; or the one where some little kid is lost at an airport looking for his mother but she will not come because she's dead because she smoked cigarettes and that is what the commercial is insinuating. How about the commercial where the lady is putting herself together with false teeth, a scarf, make-up and a wig before she goes out everyday. She looked more cancer patient then survivor. With all these commercial about all sorts of medical ailments from smoking, this is not what put me to quit. I did not quit because of these commercials. I did not quit because my clothes smelled like cigarettes. I did not quit so that I could spend more time with my daughters, or that I would be around for them longer. No, that is not what stopped me, even thou I sometimes feel ashamed that I should not have had to have and other reason but for the sake my daughters. I quit because I was tired of spending my money on it and not having anything at all to show for it. 

           I sat down a few months ago and started calculating how much money I was really spending on cigarettes. In my neighborhood I can buy a pack for $8. I have been so stress out and unfortunately do not like gum AND I did not want to start gaining weight but I still felt the need to quit. I made it a habit to have an extra pack of cigarettes in my nightstand because the smoke shop is 3 blocks away and I never feel like walking outside in the middle of the night, especially for a cigarette. So if I smoked about a pack a day and everyone around me asked me for half a pack I was spending a little over $4,000. a year. $4380. a year !!! I could have bought a Vespa. I could have been going around the world. I could have taken my kids to Disney world, or Dominican Republic, or on a cruise. I could put a deposit on an apartment. I could have had my breast done after my daughter was born. So many thing that I could have done. 

          So as I quit smoking cigarettes. I am going to start a new habit. Positive habits like writing more, going to the gym more, reading more. I am taking in a deep positive breath of life and exhale the negativity I have inside.